...And after all these years, this song brings memories of the saddest day of my life.
It's a Gloria Estefan song that was so popular (everywhere you go) during the Peruvian's winter of 1989.
http://new.music.yahoo.com/videos/gloria-estefan/dont-wanna-lose-you--2163181
Since the moment I got the bad news until the day of his funeral, I couldn't express all the pain and sadeness I felt during those oppressive days.
I found myself quiet, numb, feeling like walking with a grey cloud on top of my head after watching his body getting electroshocks in the Emergency Room.
The day of the burial, just minutes before his body was taken to the cemetery, I heard that song again thru the speakers of a far church located in the area of the funeral. And... That was it!! I broke down into tears and released all that anger and sadeness accumulated in my soul.
The lyrics of this song reminded me of the mournful days and most of all, the stupid argument that I had with him the day before he died. I was so angry!! I didn't want to talk to him.
Somehow, God wanted me to be the last person that he talked on the phone hours before his departing. He died of a heart attack in the late afternoon of August 25th of 1989 while celebrating a promotion that he got at his workplace.
My dad had an "unhealthy" heart of gold. He was a good man, a loyal husband and a loving father.
Papa Chicho, siempre estas en mis pensamientos y en mis oraciones y NUNCA TE OLVIDARE.
Me haces mucha falta! Te extranio mucho!
PS:
No matter what is the situation, Don't ever forget to say "I love you" to all your loved ones.
I'm not trying to be a cheese ball here but think about it! Perhaps tomorrow will be too late…
DON'T WANNA LOSE YOU - Gloria Estefan
Sometimes, it's hard
To make things clear
Or know when to face the truth
And I know that the moment is here
I'll open my heart
And show you inside
My love has no pride
I feel with you I've got nothing to hide
So open your eyes
And see who I am
And not who you want for me to be
I am only myself, myself
I don't wanna lose you now
We're gonna get through somehow
Don't wanna lose you now
Or ever
I've finally found
The courage to stand my ground
But if you want me, I'll be around
Forever
We all make mistakes
We all lose our way
But we've stood the test of time
And I hope that's the way it will stay
It's all up to you
To tell me to go
'Cause it won't be me to walk away
When you're all that I know
And I know...
That I don't wanna lose you now
We're gonna get through somehow
Don't wanna lose you now
Or ever
I've finally found
The courage to stand my ground
But if you want me, I'll be around
Forever, forever...
Don't wanna lose you, lose you now...
